After Twenty Years

If you could only see what you gave up on in time to work hard to keep it
You wouldn't have lost it forever
Because once you give up and move on, you're likely not going to look back

Nothing is irredeemable unless it was never good
It is very redeemable if the good stuff came from from a sincere, pious place

You didn't deserve her
Because her love for you for pure
It never held back, it never asked for much
Besides respect, besides acknowledgement, besides attention

I like to think sometimes that you regret it
You regret losing such a beautiful love
I like to dream that your new life feels uncomfortable
Like it's not supposed to be real, like the first reality you forged was completely irreplaceable

But I know that's just fanciful thinking
It's a childish wish

I like to think that maybe her love is thinning with the years flying by
But a heart once broken never truly heals
Especially since that heart never knew another

You will never realise what you lost
Because you never knew what you had

And I should feel sorry for her
But I feel sorry for you

It's better to see even if the picture's not pretty
It beats being blind