Kamna's Blog

I heard you twice  I liked that you seemed okay with me being quiet Last I checked, my fingers and yours seemed perfectly intertwined This morning, the sky feels renewed and there's a draft that plunges into the bare feet of these unclean windows The birds have colluded and my tranquil tantrum feels wrongfully disbursed and willfully discarded  I'm not ready yet And the mynahs could care less The orchestra I didn't ask for, ruining my own wicked orchestration  So I try to forego my stubbornness Attempt to seek solace in what I can't control 

Very self aware this morning Of being watched while I watch my reflection Accepting of these unruly flyaways They're uniquely mine Not at all happy about that very angry inflated boil near my piercing Beginning to make peace with that wrinkle forming from smiling too much  Exquisitely distracted by tender eyelid folds because they remind me of another pair I adore Conscious all of a sudden as I just noticed that awful post makeup morning after eye gunk Pleased at how well matched my earphones and kaftan is

 

Had a very trippy dream about my sister being here and saying "Kamna do you want to play The Giant?" and then I sit next to her and put on VR glasses. Next second I am inside the game and I am a blue dot. The objective of the game is to make as tall a structure as possible and it feels so easy because for the first minute I am just moving upwards and the building is getting created and then I hear her say "ready?" But I don't reply and by that time I see that the whole game has zoomed out and for a second I see that the structure that I made is sooo small and I am not even visible. Then the next second it zooms all the way in to me and I am very small on the structure and suddenly there are lots of options on the screen to build more structure to scale the existing structure and to increase speed and I do that and realise as I am moving the picture stays the same so it doesn't feel like I am moving at all until I see I am nearing the edge of the structure an

Januar-eally feeling good about 2021 Februar-eally feels like we've beaten the virus March-anges are unwelcome and frightening  April-ots of people get COVID all of a sudden May-ou do some fundraising for relief June-ow we all scramble to get the vaccine July-ing in bed at night worrying a little less August-rive to brace ourselves for wave 3 September-eady to kick it's sorry oriental butt October-eally hopeful that the worst is over November-s of this fiery pandemic are dying December-igghtttt! No cases for days now!

Monday I spent 30 minutes or so Devouring an 80% ripened banana Fascinated by the tiny banana seeds The 3 part geometric break in its cylinder The shape, size and tapered form Each banana, like a fingerprint, unique  My heart is full and my soul is sated Tuesday I cut open a large watermelon  As I made decisive, familiar cuts of chunks I pondered over its resilience Contentment with living just to be consumed Its end, a home in horse or human bowels So fluid, so beautifully rich in red My heart is full and my soul is sated  Wednesday I welcomed the sight of papaya That unique Pantone orange  Fleshy deliciousness in all its diced glory A womb of tantalizingly shiny black seeds Intimidatingly bitter & imperfect outside Concealing a world of peculiar flavour My heart is full and my soul is sated Thursday I grabbed a refrigerated apple Mindfully crunched a mouthful Silently appreciating how wholly sized it is How perfectly shaped for holding A single serving size it's very nature A

Children needs have evolved over the years. They are smarter, more intuitive and curious. Today's children demand non stop stimulation. Society has evolved beyond recognition. Most parents are no longer full-time parents. Most families are smaller with rarely any grandparents and in a lot of cases just a single parent. Most parents are also more proactive and involved in what their children are consuming - be it their nourishment from food, education or entertainment. For a long time now there has been a growing need for high quality education that doesn't feel like a lesson plan from 20 years ago and schooling that goes beyond question papers, Zoom calls and yawning students. More than ever, today's children need empowerment. They need a push to use their imagination. They need the opportunity to apply their evolved minds. They need to not be funneled to choose a career, work till death and scale invisible corporate ladders in the pursuit of money and then some. Their mind

You know how actors break the fourth wall and look into the camera? I want to do that in a book. Have the main character think about whether this was a book or even say something like "So I told person x how I was feeling and everything that happened from page 124"