The renegotiation of fear

Try as you might, fear follows, like a shadow, in all your pursuits

Fear is an internalised response to trauma from early childhood years

The firsts of new experiences often force us to face fear head on

The first time you are left alone to attend school or made to independently perform chores

The first time you address a crowd or speak your mind during a conflict

The overcoming of fear always involves negotiation and more

Someone famously once said "the only thing we have to fear is fear itself"

That makes so much sense because fear is such a predictable roadblock when charting any new path

It is only once fear is renegotiated, harshly dissuaded, forcefully rebuked, overpowered with grit and sheer strength does it go away

But it doesn't go away for good. It is also a self defense mechanism and therefore protects you from the foolishness of your impulses

Truly it is foolishness that drives greatness

The optimism of naivete propels you to attempt the seemingly impossible

My friend Al

Lady Danbury's handmaiden goes by Coral

Everything in this room is covered in prints that are floral

Including my pyjamas, and they are pink, just another detail you may find banal

Tonight after many a night I've got a private listening session going with my favorite song playing plural

That means multiple favourite songs not the same one on repeat, and it's the ones most jovial

Including some that feel like hugs, comforting and sweet, although aural

The poem where every line ends with a rhyme is a good one? It's merely conventional 

Usual, ideal and bland, like oatmeal

Prime Time for Preening

Abundantly beguiled with adverbs

Little sense prevails in fistful blurbs

While insomnia disturbs me in these suburbs

"Yet your faith remains in sleep tea herbs"

Obnoxiously inane wordplay is my vice

"It would be tolerable if it were nice"

While a tsunami of ideas arrive undisguised

Elusively my friend sleep skates over thin ice

If not self pity, atleast I can self deprecate

Although I can say this stuff's hard to replicate

"Write for the sake of it, don't you complicate"

Without an inner voice, nobody could placate

Not subconsciously profound is my belief

"This writing serves up only comedic relief"

The seriousness if any, is unsuspectingly brief

Comes and goes swiftly & cunningly as a thief

I waited mere minutes, maybe three

"To make the next line rhyme with 'free'?"

Am I at Mount Everest, have I peaked?

Or is it the intramural fibroid, BRB I must pee

Aaand I'm back, you're reading never ceased

An hour has passed, but to you no increase

I dare attempt to control what time has seized

"How about a joke to set the mind at ease?"

Gurgling babies keep the Gram's relevance

Joyful fragility of smallness & incoherence

Only after the climb can you begin descent

"NOT a joke! Plus a random turn, I dissent"

"When will it end, sunrise will be here in a few" 

Rather feels like an arduously long queue

Blink twice and find yourself rescued

Smile as the hue of dawn dawns on cue