Sunday, August 17, 2025

Kept / Wept / Slept

For a while now,
I've been wearing house slippers that are way too big for me.

Firsthand experiencing the dangers of seeking (and knowing) too much,
and finding out, rudely, unceremoniously,
curiosity can kill more than just the cat.

While exciting to taste the fruity slurps of seemingly full-knowledge,
the satisfying crunch of acknowledgement,
like punching holes through a thick stack of warm copy paper,
the thrill of cliff jumps can culminate
into bum-first crashing into the deceptive deep.

Nobody warns you.
That the water is always shallower;
swallowing life too fragile to keep.

No one explains that the depth is a trick.
That the more that you dig, the less it will stick.
Hunger loud from the tum;
buns left in the breadbasket: none.
And thread count of those slightly expensive sheets?
No reliable guarantee of sleep.

Long story short,
if worry is the thief of joy;
self awareness is the enemy of miracles.

And so the slippers go into that unopened shoe cupboard, unused,
where their waiting feels quieter than it should.

Monday, April 28, 2025

Tick Tock ⏱️

Killed or spent
Wasted or passed
Borrowed or bided
Lost or saved
Caught or freed

So many things to do with time
Time is moving, surely
But is also the only constant

Your world may turn upside down today
But sure as shit, tomorrow will come
The sun will rise again like clockwork

Nothing more dependable than
the fresh slate of a new day
the promise of an untouched tomorrow
the premise of shiny unmade plans
the excitement of well-crafted ideas bearing fruit
the exquisite reward of when the building's built

Even though the literal building is always building

Tuesday, January 28, 2025

ChAI

I used AI to make my chai this morning.  
Why? Because I wanted to see if I’d still get that dopamine hit from something I didn’t even make.  
I wanted to know if, by outsourcing an experience whose only purpose was my own consumption, it would take away from it.  
By removing the act of boiling water, steeping tea—by only keeping the intent to make it—would I still feel the satisfaction when I took the first sip?  
I read somewhere that you should aim to do hard things. That when you push yourself, when you fight resistance, and break through the boundaries of what you thought you could do, the dopamine hit is bigger.  
But what happens when everything can be done by AI?  
What happens when AI whispers, "I got you," and we stop doing anything at all?  
The dopamine hit then wouldn’t come from the effort, but from the discovery that AI can do more, so we do less.  
But here’s the catch—AI will do more, and we’ll feel less.  
Less joy.  
Less self-reliance.
Less confidence.
Less you.

Kept / Wept / Slept

For a while now, I've been wearing house slippers that are way too big for me. Firsthand experiencing the dangers of seeking (and knowin...